Archives: February 2009

snow days are good

so we lost power at 1am from the snowstorm overnight, which was actually quite nice. we’ve got the woodstove for heat and there was still a little tepid water in the water heater for quick showers and school was cancelled, so we had nothing to rush out for.

i did have to shovel the two feet of snow off the back deck and about thirty feet into the back yard for the dog to go to the bathroom, but it was fairly warm, and, as i said, school was cancelled. yes, i know, as a teacher i should be more upset, but how can you not like a snow day?*

so, after shoveling in my pajamas and my fantastically awesome, super-warm, completely waterproof boots, we had a nice lazy morning of breakfast and tea and books and some outlining for me for my next book and some revision of short stories and toasting ourselves by the fire.

then there was the snowblowing and shoveling, which, while not exactly fun, is always a great feeling afterward. we had five foot banks at the end of both parts of our driveway, and our mailbox is no longer connected to its post**, thanks to the plows.

Francoishowever, when we finally finished that and cleaned the snow off the skylights, the sun had warmed the snow enough to make it snowman snow again! so, we rolled ourselves another one, named francois (he got a moustache), who has already lasted longer than fezzig from earlier this week.*** the dog had fun, as well, chasing snowballs and bouncing like a rabbit through the snow that was chest deep to her.

the rest of the day is a bit hazy, with after that, lunch (i spent too much time opening and closing the un-powered fridge just to make our sandwiches) prepared us for a bit of napping in front of the fire, thinly disguised as attempting to read and write more. but, hey, that’s what these days are for, right?

we’re finally back online, though, obviously, and just in time for dinner, too!

* assuming you’ve got a roof over your head, warmth in your bones, and all that, of course…

** it’s still in place, though, since there’s close to 8 feet of snowbank all around it, so my wife just faced it forward again and packed the snow tight, so it should be good for a few weeks.

*** fezzig actually sacked out across the front lawn before lunchtime, that day. i didn’t give him enough support, as a parent, apparently.

in the meantime…

so, with the book in limbo as i wait for readers to finish (and do my best not to pester them), i spent most of last week’s writing time working short stories. i’ve a few i’ve been wanting to get a final look at before i send them out (meaning, of course, another revision for each), but i’ve kept all that on hold until the book got out to readers. it was great to revisit with these stories, both to give them the attention they deserve, and to revisit with the characters. of course, there are things that need work, but i still feel the strength of each one, which is a very good feeling.

it was also good to be focusing on something other than No Good Deed. not that i want to be done with it*, but that i need to let go for a bit, to be honest with it when i return to it.

well, that was how it was supposed to work, anyway. after pestering my wife with questions as she read the manuscript, i’ve spent most of this weekend working on the query letter and researching potential agents. i’ve described before how difficult and drawn out a process query letters have been for me. not so, for this one. it’s not perfect, yet, but it’s pretty darn close, and i’m pretty darn excited about it.

now, though, i must wait, and that’s a good thing. i don’t want to rush it.** besides, i’ve got the remaining short stories to revise and get out, and the next book to outline. it’s been dancing around in the back room of my mind for almost as long as i’ve been working on NGD, but now it’s time to put it to paper and spend some quality time with it. i have a feeling this one will ask more of me, emotionally, and i’m intrigued by that. a little nervous about whether i am up to the task, but intrigued to give it a go.

* in fact, i’m actually looking forward to a good long relationship with this one, but that conversation’s for another time, should things go as hoped for…

** well, i do want to rush it, actually, because i feel really very good it and don’t want to delay a minute, but i know that would definitely be a mistake.

it’s the little things…

it snowed last night, and this morning i discovered it was the heavy snow, the kind that can break backs and clog snowblowers, the kind that can keep showing up in mounds at the end of your driveway thanks to the diligent efforts of our local snowplows, the kind…that makes perfect snowmen.

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inigo had it right (and i don’t)

i realize yesterday’s (this morning’s) post confirming the end of the revision was rather lackluster, but sleep deprivation was closing in fast. today, though, i’d intended to spend a little more time with this, only to find myself overwhelmed each time i thought about starting. in the words of the seeker of the six-fingered man: “let me explain. no, there is too much. let me sum up.”

the ups and downs of the last several weeks (as regards the book) have been, more than i realized at the time, quite exhausting. despite a truly delightful and relaxing weekend away from technology and the book*, and the final buzz i had last evening as i rode through to the end of the revision, i was utterly sapped when i finished. it came down on me hard, almost the moment i finished the spell check.

this caught me a little off-guard, and i think caused the subdued post. on further consideration, though, it makes perfect sense. they are almost identical in length, though Witness took me 3+ years to write and No Good Deed has been in process barely 6 1/2 months. seems fair enough to feel a bit tired at the end of that.

is it an apples to apples comparison? of course not. Witness was entirely on my own time outside of a full (plus) time job, where No Good Deed began in the heady days of post-employment this past summer and still enjoys about 1/3 of a given workday during current workweeks, plus evenings and weekends.

also, Witness underwent roughly 12 revisions over the course of things, right up to (and after – $$$) the final submission to iUniverse. No Good Deed has only been through (and we’ll separate them the way they should be, here) 5, to date. does this mean NGD still has 7 to go?**

no, emphatically not. as i’ve mentioned before, i learned a lot from Witness, both on what to, and what not to, do, and NGD has benefitted significantly from this.*** i anticipate one more minor revision, following the input from readers and my own final read after a little time away, and feel very confident about this, though it might be a good idea to check back in a few weeks to see how large the serving of humble pie will be.

hm. for a summary, i’m not doing a very good job. let’s try this again:

  1. revision, up a notch : i have made significant progress in this area with NGD. the identification of what was working and what was not came faster, and felt more accurate and true, than previously. i was less caught up with how i wanted it to work, and more attuned to how it should (compared to previously – i still have a long way to go to catch it before i write it in the first place).
  2. ‘action’ versus ‘drama’ : first, i don’t quite think it’s either fair or accurate to dichotomize these two terms like this, but it serves my current experience. i’ve discovered that writing action feels great when i’m writing it, and is a bear when i’m revising. i’m not 100% sure why that is, yet, but it’s a learning. this doesn’t mean the dramatic or even the mundane items are without blemish, not by any stretch of the imagination, but the work that i do on the action pieces often results in fundamental changes, while the revision of dramatic or mundane items generally relates to tone, word choice, rhythm, etc.
  3. letting go : this is an interesting one, and one i’m experimenting with right now. it’s my nature to want to see things through to the end, to want to understand the whole ‘why’ of a situation or an action.**** as a result, i tend to write all the way from a potential dynamic and exciting beginning to the draining and lifeless end of a situation or rationale, so as to make sure the reader fully understands. it’s taken a little while, but i accept that this is, generally speaking, a bad idea. readers are smart. what’s more, life is full of gaps in understanding. there’s a difference between writing clearly and beating someone over the head with something.
  4. family history : while i had done character backgrounds for Witness, i took it to the next level with NGD, down to birthdays, cousins, anniversaries, neighbors, work history, and where they went to school. i didn’t do all this for all the characters, but i covered a lot of it for most of them, and (the critical point) all of it was done in the outline stage. for the most part, i never had to work out how a character would react to X or Y, because he or she had already told me. this is something i’ve known all along, but never put much stock in until NGD. i read a quote once, i believe from Maya Angelou, that described her process writing everything she knew about each character, well before she started writing her stories, and that from then on, it was just listening. this is what a large part of NGD was, for me.
  5. outline, outline, outline : more than anything else, the outline for this book (which took nearly a month in itself) was the single most important part of NGD. yes, i used one for Witness, but it was not nearly as well thought out. that said, i wasn’t a slave to the outline; rather, the outline had been developed with such care and attention and consideration, that it was more the story in miniature than an outline. because of this work, i was able to identify several potential train wrecks (though not all, of course), before i ever started writing. then, when i did start writing, i wasn’t worrying about trying to figure out the plot, i was able to focus on the story and the characters, which is as it should be.

hm. again. bullets do not a summary make.

the summary, then, is this: i’ve learned a lot and can’t wait to start on the next book!

now, it’s time to get away from the computer and practice some piano.

* we wandered about the mid-coast region, getting buffetted by frigid winds, watching a family of deer watch us back, taking back roads that curved every which way, crossing paths with signs like the one on the rug-hooking shop (‘welcome hookers!’) and the mexican restaurant named ‘el el frijoles’ (the double ‘el’ really snagged us, until we finally remembered ol’ leon leonwood and his boots, and then we laughed ourselves silly [no, it doesn't really take much]), crossing more than one vertiginous(!) bridge, lounging about in bed with books we’ve been putting off as the sun wandered across the sky, stumbling into a delightful co-op which we desperately wished was closer, eating more than we should and enjoying every bite (particularly the scottish toffee cake dessert at darby’s in belfast which, alone, is worth the trip), and otherwise having a lovely time together.

** the scream you just heard was my wife.

*** that said, even as i type this, my wife, reading the newly printed copy for the first time, just asked me if i meant Mt. Washington instead of Mt. Katahdin in a particular section, which i did. it’s okay. there will be these things. this, kids, is why it’s always important to have someone else read your work.

**** it’s this that causes such problems when i experience many mainstream films and books, because if i don’t believe in the ‘why’, i don’t enjoy the results. plot flaws and continuity errors generally drive me batty. and, unfortunately for her, my wife, who has to listen to me complain about them, because i seem in capable of keeping this kind of frustration to myself.

draft 2(or 5) is done

okay, so it’s a little after midnight, but i did, officially, finish just before the stroke of 12, so it was done on the 15th of february.

that being said, it’s a little after midnight, so all the energy that has held me up the past several hours (and it has been a fantastic time, i must say) has suddenly evaporated with the completion of the typed revisions, so my intensity level is waning quickly.

nonetheless, it’s done, and sometime tomorrow a handful of folks will start reading it for the first time and i will have to wait patiently for them to finish and not hound them daily, hourly, minutely(?) with ‘are you done yet? are you done yet?’ more than all the difficulty writing, i think this might be the hardest part.

for now, though, i bid good night, and seek my bed.

know when to say when

like when i’m trying too hard to finish and put off mypacking and such for a Valentine’s Day weekend getaway with my wife.

not smart.

so, another 20+ pages this morning, which is good, but the end will have to wait until early next week. that’s okay, though. i’m looking forward to a couple days of us together, in a quiet b&b, without any pets or internet or television, just us, some books, some cards, some walks, and plenty of peace and quiet.

that’s worth putting off just about anything else, for.

mojo is good, but sleep is essential

50 pages to go.

it’s impossible to complain about 30 pages of work this evening, especially on top of the 40 this morning, but i was really hoping to finish. unrealistically, again, as it turns out, but there you go.*

i’d left a few more asterisks un-fleshed out after my previous revision, which i’d forgotten about until i hit them again this evening. as a result, i had to spend some time on research that i hadn’t intended. it was good, though, and i’ve learned some more about the origins and history of the NYC subway system…

now, though, my brain’s getting fuzzy and it’s time for bed.

* to look at it another way, if i didn’t keep making unrealistic expectations, i probably would never have written Witness.

86 and counting!

mostly recovered from neck twinge, though for some reason sleep made it worse. yesterday didn’t quite match expectations, though, and i’d be probably another twenty pages further at this point if i hadn’t had a bit of a tangled re-revision episode a couple hours ago, however…

i’m less than a hundred pages away!

aside from the re-revision i mentioned, the progress has been very good, page after page (40+ of them this morning!). peeking ahead at the last 86(!) pages, i see a fairly clear field for some excellent progress potential this evening, before and after dancing, anyway. i know, more exercise, is that such a good idea? particularly with the end so near on the book?

i’ll have to risk it. we skipped last week, and we miss it too much to leave it again.

regardless, i’m feeling the mojo, so i don’t think anything can stop me now!

>insert self-hex here<

stupid exercise

okay, so i’ve said more than once how important exercise is for my sanity and for my writing process. when i’m not exercising regularly, i’m not writing regularly (or well).

and then i go to the gym and shift my neck ever so slightly during a push and *twang* the whole thing goes out of whack.* okay, that’s a bit of an exaggeration. i’ve just got a tight neck, now. nothing terrible, but walking around like i’m strapped to a steel rod is just annoying. particularly when i forget and try to turn quickly. the worst part, of course, is knowing the moment that it happened that i shouldn’t have done it.

but if i hadn’t gone to the gym, none of this would’ve happened…

pathetic whining aside, though, i did make good progress this morning on the book (thanks also to the Advil, the heating pad, an excellent backrub from my wife this morning before work, and the rejuvenative power of a hot cup of tea), and what looked like another slow slog section has actually shot by with exciting speed.

now where’s that heating pad…

* i’d love to blame my dad for my weak back, but a couple years of wrestling for school (and poorly, by the way), and then practically tearing my rhomboid out during crew practice certainly haven’t helped any.

the incredible shrinking book

it’s lost 32 pages in this revision. well, not really. or not as much as it might seem. coming into this revision, i had 474 pages; as of right now, i have 442. have i really cut 32 pages of unnecessary babbling? well, it’s not to say that it couldn’t use it, but those 474 pages were split into 72 chapters; as of now, there are only 61. so, 11 of those disappearing pages were nothing more than the loss of new chapter start pages. there were also a couple other accidental blank pages in there, between chapters which i got rid of.

that said, that still leaves nearly 20 pages of tightened prose. a distinct accomplishment, if a slightly back-handed one (why couldn’t i see that bloat in the previous revisions?). however, that’s what this whole process is about, right? getting better, learning the craft, developing my eye, continuing to grow.

which brings me to a minor incident today that may well have massive impact for the book as a whole.*

i’ve mentioned my difficulty with action scenes, and how i feel those are the most difficult for me to revise. well, this doesn’t mean the non-action scenes are much better. today, i was working on a particularly dramatic section, not physically but emotionally. tensions are a bit high and folks are getting frazzled. as a result, there’s an eventual meltdown between a couple characters. from draft 1, the interchange has been largely untouched; though i felt something was off with it somewhere, i couldn’t quite place it. it was a little drawn out, but not terribly so, so i left it, chalking my concern up to unrealistic perfectionism.

however, today, while making the minor edits to it that i’d written, i found myself doing more to it. yes, re-revising, my beloved bogeyman. but there was something to it. i took the length approach, and started trimming away anything that wasn’t absolutely necessary, snipping, tucking, slicing, and finally chopping.

it was only after a fair bit of doing this, though, that i realized what my subconscious was needling me about: they were using all the wrong words. i was correct that the moment was a dramatic one, but i had it for all the wrong reasons. i’d utterly glossed over the true difficulty between the two characters, and had them arguing over something that, while superficially a problem, had none of the emotional kick that the core issue warranted. moreover, i realized that the characters already had that argument-about-things-other-than-the-real-things-we-need-to-argue-over’ argument, and that this was the time for the real deal.

once i had that out in the clear, the revision shot along, revealing a scene that may well be the most emblematic encapsulation of the main character in the book, with both intensity and humanity. it felt that good, and recharged me with a sense of that character and a clarity of focus, tightening a number of themes which i hadn’t realized were slack.

of course, then i asked myself how i could miss this all this time, but the only answer i can offer is practice, i think. i hope, anyway.

and with that, good night.

* no dear, i’m not re-structuring the book and forcing yet another revision.